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To any one who takes the time to read my life and try to help me thank you.Sorry for my very poor grammar and spelling.Bare with me please

I am a 17 and half year old guy with sticklers syndrome from birth witch means iv bin through 3 major jaw surgery’s to try and fix my small jaw and clef palette to truly understand you would have to use Google. I have less cartilage in my bones and body and at 17 all ready have arthritis in my knees and wrist’s and knuckles. I have 2 scars on my face from having bolts in my face. I was the first one in Canada to have this done 11 years ago roughly. i was in Kindergarten they broke my jaw shifted it forward to fix it. I than at 12 had titanium plates put in my face my jaw re broken to help it more. I also at surgery to cut the back of my throat flip it over the roof of my mouth to cover a hole. I have heart mummer when i was younger. Ever other day my life seemed to be doctor or surgery or another needle or some one laughing at me. im going to explain bit by bit. I am now terrified of needles and pain and doctors. Because of long life of them Cardiologist plastic surgeons weeks in the ICU. it just stop at 16 when i got my braces off after 4 years. If you saw me you may laugh if your younger like i get ever day of my life since elementary. Iv bin made fun of for having a lisp. and scares on my face that i never told any one where i got them. Only my close friends new that witch was very few. Since i was never some one who got picked or talked to. Kids are cruel and it only got worse. I have smaller chin and jaw still to this day get call turtle boy. And more iv had things thrown at me cars honk groups of people laugh at me for years. Its broken me down and made me hurt. Living with my parents. Wasn’t helping my dad has bin there since i was 2 but is not my real dad my mom told me my real dad is dead or in jail. i never new his name till year ago. in November i god found by a step brother i never new i had. and 2 sisters and one more brother there is 3 mom’s and my real dad. Who told me he side of what happened i learned my mom had lied to me for years saying he never wanted any thing to do with me. When he said and the other mom that he wanted to be there but my mom told him to go and never come back and left. And went to B.c with my *dad* he used a lot of drugs. pot 24/7 he is stoned and was alcoholic all his life irony parent met drunk in a bar. He would come stumbling in at 2 am some times not even come home and phone from the drunk tank monthly. That hurt me to watch that. My parents fight 24.7 screaming. We are poor family we are on welfare recently my mom got told she had M.s and my dad in i think 06 left my mom for 8 months one 2 days before her birthday and day it was 2 years after my moms mom died. and the day after there anniversary. My mom went in to hard core depression and has never bin the same she loved him so much she let him back in even after she kicked him out when i was 8 for doing needle drugs. My mom got over him for bit than she was happy. But missed him and let him back in and sadly they got back toughener. Money was tight when he wasn’t there we don’t have much never have and never while 2 kids dad who cooks dosent make much mom who only waitress her whole life cant get much income. He came back still drinking doing drugs. in the house around me around my life. It would make me cry make me hurt to watch that to live with that i hate my family. My mom kicked him out once more said come back after a.a meetings he stayed sober 359 days than went on 3 days drinking binge and broke. And when he wasn’t drinking he just smoked more pot. Try talking to some one who hates your beliefs im Bi im very Feminine i hang out with about 98% chick’s because guys hate me and just make fun of me. For being flamboyant im that way because when you hate your dad and guys so much and they make fun of you for ever thing you do. You don’t like them i maby hang out with 3 guys off and on at my age.But if you want more on my background ask, i can go on for pages. My feelings are angry to life i hate it im the type of guy if ur stuck and cant get home and i have bus money il give it to u even if i don’t know you. i love ever one. and help any body i can i put ever one before me you could i say i think im not attractive but get told i am almost ever day buy numerous people. I enjoy making people smile and laugh and i am rather funny and odd and weird since i have A.D.D and A.D.H.D and dont take meds for it since i refuse to since my mom 24.7 takes painkillers and morphine that the doter gives her for migraines from car crash we where in.watch your mom rote away in depression and get by in her day when she fights by taking pills it affects you deeply. If you asked me how i am over msn and i was crying i would say im fine. Some how i tell my self my life is just like ever ones else we all have problems i have friends i have beautiful Girlfriend that iv had for ove

In the past two years I have lost my father, underwent an enormous home renovation while living there, had a breast cancer scare, lost my year old granddaugther when her mother abruptly moved away with her, put my son through drug rehab for cocaine addiction, lost my job of 9 years and am now looking for a new one, my second son decided to live with his father, I will be turning 50 next week and my husband and I are separated because he feels I haven’t been there for him. My extended family all lives 1200 miles away and my few friends I have locally are married with busy lives of their own. I feel so alone and depressed. I don’t know how to handle all of this. I cry all the time despite the fact that I exercise regularly and eat healthfully. I go to church but dont know how to fit in. It seems no one really needs friends but me. I’m certain there are others out there who do, but I don’t know how to find them. Any help or advice would be appreciated.