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My little sister was 18, beautiful, went to school, had a job and was a heroin addict. I always tried to help her, put her in rehab and she leaves. She always lied to me and I became obsessed with saving her. She died a couple months ago. Was in an apartment with 11 other people who were all high and just watched her pass out, turn blue and die. One guy robbed her as she was dying and took off. I am obsessed with her death and angry at the people who did nothing to help. I know she was responsible for her death but my anger is killing me. I feel so guilty that I could not have prevented this. I can’t talk to my mom as she always enabled her and said she did not need a rehab – my mom always got in the middle of me trying to help her. I cant eat or sleep and I go to cemetary every other day. My husband is getting very annoyed and says I have to move on but I cant. She could have had the world at her feet. I wish I could have her back. How do you moveon?

term memory loss now. From then i lived with my grandma and uncle. In 8th grade she died, (i found here laying in the bathroom, she had thrown up blood or something and then fell, all i k now is that the whole bathroom was red) that was pretty traumatic, i then stayed living with my uncle. I saw my mom every week, shes at rehab for her head injury. Recently she broke her leg and somethng is wrong with her head. Shes at a nursing home and barely makes any sense. My aunt is an alcoholic but is for the most part alright, i talk to her everyday. When she drinks its just hard too:-/. My uncle takes care of me now. Hes great but expects so much out of me. I take care of all the chores & just deal with so mcuh. I have a boyfriend but at times can be sometimes verbally abusive and jelous. I dont kno this all is so overwhelming at times. Somtimes im happy but othere times i just.. get so sad. Its hard to sleep at night sometimes. Is this anxiety? Answers please:-/. Not sure what to do.