Was anyone else totally moved by ‘Miss Heroin’?

Monday, September 13th, 2010

So, now Little Man, you’ve grown tired of grass,
L.S.D., goof balls, cocaine, and hash;
And someone, pretending to be a true friend,
Said, “I’ll introduce you to Miss Heroin.”
Well, honey, before you start fooling with me,
Just let me inform you of how it will be.
For I will seduce you and make you my slave.
I’ve sent men much stronger than you to their graves
You think you could never become a disgrace
and end up addicted to poppy seed waste.
So, you’ll start inhaling me one afternoon;
You’ll take me into your arms very soon.
And once I have entered deep down in your veins,
The craving will nearly drive you insane.
You’ll need lots of money (as you have been told);
For, darling, I’m much more expensive than gold.
You’ll swindle your mother; and, just for a buck,
You’ll turn into something vile and corrupt.
You’ll mug and you’ll steal for my narcotic charm.
And feel contentment when I’m in you arms.
The day yo8u realize the monster you’ve grown,
You’ll solemnly promise to leave me alone.
If you think that you’ve got the mystical knack,
Then sweetie, just try getting me off you back.
The vomit, the cramps, your gut tied in a knot,
The jangling nerves screaming for just one more shot-
The cold chills and hot sweat, the withdrawal pains,
Can only be saved by my little white grains.
Thee’s no other way, and there’s no need to look;
For deep down inside, you will know you are hooked.
You’ll desperately run to the pusher, and then
You’ll welcome me back to your arms once again.
And when you return (just as I foretold!)
I know that you’ll give me your body and soul.
You’ll give up your morals, your conscience, your heart,
And you will be mine until Death Do Us Part.

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My poem “Lonley Death of A Heroin Addict” like/dislike. ?

Sunday, September 12th, 2010

Already posted it but few suggestions that i should have gone over the spacing and spelling lol. i wrote this when i was 16, it is about my mother and what i went through watching her. It goes in stages of P.O.V. Her point of View then mine then hers etc.

Lonely Death of A heroin Addict

Evil filters through,

The devils shiny prick,

Drawn to tunnels blue,

Another bloodied nick.

So practiced in a silent reserve,

I wait, ready to catch you when you fall,

Lest you get what you deserve.

And I am not really there at all.

Her mind for now at ease,

Like insulin of a toxic brand,

It brings her to her knees,

Days pass through her fingers, flowing through like sand

Though you needed me more so,

You pushed me everyday,

Until that final blow,

when i finally walked away .

Polluted is her mind, her womb,

Her organs dead, a rotten heart.,

Closer now awaits her doom,

It tears her slowly apart..

Friendship amongst shadows I seek,

Safe from judging eyes,

I watch you grow weak

But only darkness hears my cries.

With hallowed cheek and no skin to fit,

Her body but bones that rattle,

A lonely search for that last hit,

I will watch her loose the battle.
ok *LOSE not loose
jeez learn to spell me

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Please help me! My sister is abusing heroin and i dont know what to do!?

Sunday, September 12th, 2010

Ok i am only 17 and my sister is 19. I introduced her to what seemed like a very nice guy and he turned out being a heroin addict. Well long story short now she is addicted. And it has gotten very bad. I feel like i dont know her anymore and i deep down i am very mad at her but i cant just forget about her. I mean she has stolen money and belongings out of our house and she doesnt want to go anywhere in her life. Before the use of the drug she was this very happy girl and she loved to have fun and now it seems like it took total control over her and if she doesnt have that then she is looking for aomething else. I feel like this is all my fault for introducing them to eachother but then again NO ONE knew that he was this sick person. I am looking for any suggestions at all. My mother and I are the only ones in my family that are trying to get her off of it my dad isnt really in our lives so i know it will be hard without him. If anyone has ever had this similar situation please respond to this question and include your email address. I could use any support or suggestions. Thank you so much in advance.

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My stepdaughter is engaged to a Heroin addict – what can I do to talk her out of it?

Thursday, September 9th, 2010

She is 21. “C” was engaged to another young man and they were to be married October 5th and she called off the wedding in July when she started seeing the heroin addict. I know she is an adult and will make up her own mind. She doesn’t understand addiction in the least fights with bf about him smoking cigs. Her mother was an alcoholic and addicted to gambling, she died last May of heart disease sudddenly. My husband is just about speechless, no matter what we say, she isn’t listening. She is supposed to be going to work on a cruise ship in March for 5 mos., now she is already thinking about coming back sooner. We think he proposed to keep her from going. His family is ecstatic about them getting married, she is “his guardian angel” and will “keep him in check” they believe. He supposedly quit using H after two months in jail this past Sept/Oct. but he is drinking and not using a recovery program, just once a week private counseling. Any help, any suggestions?
I know she will make her own choices, but seriously, if you are a parent, how can you “stay out of it”? Wouldn’t you be concerned if it were your daughter?
Really, big-bad, you think a heroin addict that has already had jail time before the age of 21 is stable? Wow, I don’t even know what to say about that. He has never lived on his own, Mommy and Daddy pay for everthing, take care of everything and still he can’t cope. How stable will he be with the responsibilities of managing a home, a wife, and children? Yes they want children, and I just hope that is a few years away. Stable? seriously???
Most of you give great advice and I appreciate it wholeheartedly! Can anyone refer me to any decent websites that may offer us more information regarding heroin addiction and/or recovery or something for loved ones of addicts. I have been searching and have been disappointed thus far with the info available. Thanks again!

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My EX Girlfriend overdosed on heroin?

Wednesday, September 8th, 2010

I’m 17 and my EX girlfriend Brooke overdosed on heroin this morning. She is in the hospital and is in pretty bad shape. I feel so bad i still love her we dated for 2 years and then broke up after i cheated on her and my son Joesph was born as a result of my one night stand. We broke up for awhile however we quickly got back together when she got pregnant. Drugs was always the biggest problem in our relationship. She was even using during her pregnancy She got an abortion without my knowledge because she was worried she wasn’t going to be a good mother and couldn’t kick drugs. I was pissed and we broke up again despite my love for her. I was shocked and scared by her OD i what should i do to help her i don’t want her to die?
i don’t do drugs

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what does this mean? my brother is a heroin addict. if your going to be mean dont answer please.?

Monday, September 6th, 2010

i have a brother that is a heroin addict for years now. recently hes complaining of itching all over and his room is filled with bed mites. my mother and i dont know if its true. my father thinks its that he got a hold of something that he injected and is giving him an allergic reaction. i dont know anything about this drug and neither does my mother so i am lost. please dont judge i am just trying to help my brother.
thank you so much to everyone who answered. i also forgot to include he already has the worst HEP there is, and he already has a bad liver. thank you so much for not judging.

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My sister is a heroin addict, what do i do?

Sunday, September 5th, 2010

My sister is 18, since she was 11 she has been a nightmare, kicked out of school at 12, in trouble with the police for selling drugs and attacking police officers at 13 sent to a special school for bad kids, in foster care as she lied and said my mum was horrible to her. When she was 17 she got on heroin. She Then came off it about 4 months later with help of pills. She then said she had changed and was stupid blah blah blah. Anyway i now find out from my mum she is back on it. I cant help but hating her so much, i have no sympathy and dont feel sorry for her in anyway. She used all the excuses such as i wanted to try it last time but for me, they dont work again. My poor mother is going out of her mind, she isnt sleeping and to make matters worse she is due to go on holiday for the first time in 5 years next week. She is thinking about cancelling now. I absolutely despise my sister for what she is doing. Im bored of her “No one loves me” and “you dont understand” stories How do i cope with this and help my mum cope? I live abroad which doesn’t help. To me she is just a selfish, attention seeking nobody. It may sound harsh to a lot of you but unless you have been in the same situation then please don’t bother judging!! I just need some advice please.
She is too selfish and self absorbed to admit she has an addiction. To her its “oh we dont understand” or ” oh we dont know what she is going through”. My mum isnt strong enough to just cut her off until she realises she is hurting everyone around her. All her boyfriends are junkies who sell heroin for a living. She is a lost cause as far as im concerned. Rehab isnt for her as she is too lazy to go and the doctors wont send her. As far as im concerned she is dead already. I know it sounds terrible and i hate saying it but the way i see it is that if she wasn’t my sister i would feel the same, so why feel different because she is family? She has done nothing but cause my family grief since about the age of 12, and i wouldnt accept that from a stranger so why accept it from an attention seeking, immature child?

Also to me its not an addiction, especially not twice, its a way of life. And thats the life she chooses to live. I just wish my mum would feel the same way.

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Should I be extremely concerned about my boyfriend trying heroin?

Saturday, September 4th, 2010

I know it is a stupid question but I got to ask. My boyfriend told me yesterday that he tried heroin the night before and was like “I’m never doing that again.” I was really shocked that he did it, but since he said he was never going to do it again I tried to feel at ease about it to the best of my ability. I had my doubts that he would only do it that one time and boy was I right..
We hung out last night after he had hung out with one of his friends. He seemed– odd. I asked him right away if he had taken any sort of drugs and he was like “No.” Shortly thereafter I asked him again and he said “I only smoked pot. That’s why I seem fucked up.” About an hour later he randomly decided to just blurt out “I did heroin again.” I was so upset with him…
To make a long story short, I’m seriously afraid that he is going to get addicted and I don’t know what to do. He got addicted to pot and I know of people in my family who have done heroin and screwed up their entire life. I don’t want to see him going down a really bad path. He already has enough problems. Should I tell his parents about it? (He is only 19.) I know his mother would be heart broken if I told her, but I’m trying to look out for my boyfriend’s best interest. Please if you can give any serious advice I would appreciate it very much. This is a serious matter.

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My dad always makes jokes about heroin and how he’s gonna start doing it?

Friday, September 3rd, 2010

He jokes around a lot about a lot of things, but this is the only thing that really worries me.

I know he used to do heroin when he was a kid, but he quit. he didn’t go to any fancy rehab, or anything, he said he just straight up quit it, that’s what he always told my mother.

He is kind of sick. He has emphysema (won’t quit smoking), glaucoma (just got a cornea transplant and is starting to gain back his sight), and some problem with his kidneys.

I’m 16 and I see him once a week, because that’s all my mother allows me to spend with him, because of his record, and such.

I just don’t know what to do. Sometimes I feel like I’m the adult, and he’s the child.

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Am I in a lost cause with my heroin addict b/f?

Wednesday, September 1st, 2010

I am a 26 year old female and a mother of a 3 year old daugter and the girlfriend of a 30 year old heroin addict. My boyfriend of 5 years has been a heroin addict since he was 17. I love him to death and he is the father of my beautiful girl, but he needs serious help. I mean, he shoots up 6 times a day. He doesn’t have a job anymore. He has been in and out of rehab since he was a kid. I know I should break up with him but I know if I do he will kill himself. He told me he would if I ever left him. Help me somebody, does anyone have any advice they could give that went through this type of thing?

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Can a heroin addict be a good parent?

Tuesday, August 31st, 2010

My daughter found out 2 things about the man she was dating, that he was a heroin addict and after breaking up with him that her birth control had failed and that she was 16 months pregnant by him ( she had no symptoms and she has always had very irregular periods). Because of the advanced pregnancy and personal beliefs she has decided to keep the baby, however, she is now considering allowing this man to be involved in the baby’s life… I am very concerned because I do not believe it is a good choice in an already difficult situation. He recently relapsed and began shooting again. He also abuses prescription drugs and alcohol. Ironically, his mother is a substance abuse doctor and his dad is a preacher. Both of his parents insist that their son is a “good” man, and that he should be given the opportunity to redeem himself; although according to my daughter his parents are unaware that he has relapsed… she also believes that he only relapsed “once” and that he learned from that mistake and that he is once again clean. I am not inclined to believe that a person with his character is able to change. My daughter is only 19 years old, she believes that people change, she also believes that hard drugs speak more of childhood trauma than of character, I think that unfortunately and ultimately it becomes one and the same…Would you agree that such persons that abuse hard drugs can still be a good influence in a child’s life?
I meant to say 16 week pregnant… not months! Sorry.

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What should I do if I think my ex is using heroin?

Monday, August 30th, 2010

I am a single father that and custody of my daughter because her mother does not want her. She dropped her off at my house 5 years ago and said she did not want anything to do with her except to be able to see her from time to time. We never went to court and I have no legal paperwork saying that she gave custody to me. I have never stopped her from seeing our daughter and never asked her for any support or anything. The problem is that now she is in a relationship with another man and for some reason wants our daughter to come to their house every other weekend which I was O.K. with because I feel it is important for my daughter to know and love her mother. This has been only going on for a couple months and every time I pick my kid up from their house she is crying and depressed for a few days after she comes home. She says that her mom is mean and yells at her the whole time she is there and makes her do all kinds of housework while she is there and does not even get to talk or anything with her mom. She says that when she is there she has to be quiet and watch the other kids because they are all younger than my daughter who is 11. The guy my x is with has 2 young kids and my x has a young son from another guy she was with after me.

It seems like she is using our kid as a babysitter so she does not have to take care of them and my daughter says that her mom and the new guy are always in the bedroom with the door locked. She told me there is no noise coming from the room other than a television and that they don’t knock on the door because if they make too much noise they will be in trouble and get yelled at. That is the history for my problem and this is what worries me.

Just tonight I called the father of my ex’s son to see if I could pick him up for a picnic this Sunday because he will have him that day. He is a really nice guy and a good father so he agreed to let me pick him up. He said that he trusts me to pick him up anytime that I want and told me that the guy she is with now is a heroin dealer and that my ex is using it too. I have noticed that she is looking really bad lately and is so thin you can see her bones through her clothes. I though she might be sick because she supposedly had ovarian cancer last year and told me she had to have a hysterectomy. I found out that she was lying about that from her brother and she had her tubes tied so she could not get pregnant again. She always wears long sleeve shirts now even when it is 80 degrees but wears shorts and like I said she looks like she is about dead.

I have heard from other people that she has been using heroin too but I just figured they were just trying to make me mad at her or some thing. I don’t know what to do now. Should I keep my daughter from her mom and risk losing custody of her if it goes to court? I am so afraid to lose my daughter. I love her with every ounce of my soul and don’t think I could handle losing her. I live in Pennsylvania where the court always gives custody of the child to the mother until the court has a chance to hear the case and I have no proof of the drug use. If I let my daughter go to her mom’s house and they get busted for drugs I will lose my daughter to the child protective services. If I call the police and turn her in she will file some thing against me to get our daughter from me and might even turn me in for kidnapping even though she goes to school right beside my house and her address is here I think she could do that. I don’t know what to do or where to turn for help.
Sorry for such a long question but I feel it is important to let you know the history so you can try to help me. Please take this serious because it is no joke and I can’t sleep because I am so scared to lose my kid. Thank You all for any help you can give me.
Thanks guys. I am going to talk to a lawyer Monday and I am going to see what he has to say before I talk to her. My daughter will NOT be going to that house until I speak with the lawyer and get his opinion. I don’t know why I didn’t think of talking with a lawyer before. I guess I was just too worked up but thanks again for the help.

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Legal Permanent Resident, 300gm of Heroin, faces deportation?

Sunday, August 29th, 2010

A friend of mine is a Legal Permanent Resident (he has a green card). He got himself into some trouble. He was caught traffiking 300gms of Heroin, and he’s in detention. There’s an ICE hold on him, so he faces 7-30 years in prison, and possible deportation.

A little background story on him… his mother is a natural born American, but he was born overseas. That’s why he has a greencard and not citizenship. He can’t get deported because his whole family is in the U.S.

What options does he have?

PS – I don’t want stupid answers like deport him and all that… this is a serious issue… there’s someone’s life hanging in the balance… so SERIOUS responses would be appreciated.

Can he file for extreme hardship? How can he avoid being deported? He has no prior convictions… he’s been in the U.S. legally for 7 years. PLUS his mother is a natural born American.

Deporting him would mean separating him from his mother, brothers, and sisters for the rest of his life.

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My brother is/was a heroin user….?

Sunday, August 29th, 2010

About 1 year ago I found out my brother had used heroin. He had admited to injecting and snorting it. When my whole family found out we all had individual talks with him and I believe he quit for a while. Than when he turned 18 in 5/2010, he received an inheritance of $12,000. It was gone in approx 6 weeks. Our Dad died when we were young and thats what the inheritance came from. Our Mom is really passive, sometimes I feel like I am more of a mother to my brother than she is. Dont get me wrong, she loves us so much, she does everything she should, she just likes to let things get better on there own. Anyway, since than we all moved to a different state. My brother went too, with out saying it directly we asked him to come to our new state and start fresh. My brother and my mom now live together in a small town in the middle of no where, my brother just got his first job. Im doing everything I can to keep him from visiting his old friends and his old ways….Im almost positive he is clean now, however I think he is taking loads of otc drugs like benedryl and whatever else he can use to kind of cope with not having the heroin. That makes me scared but I am trying to find the right balance on how to deal with this. About 2 weeks ago he wanted to take like 3 trains and 2 buses to get back to our old state and I got into a big yelling match with him, telling him to stay here…
He actually listened to me and stayed, but one of the things he said during our argument was that he doesnt like how I mother him and try to stop him from doing things…. I dont want to be a motherly sister but Ill say something when no one else will… He seems really depressed in his new town, I dont really live that close by. Im trying to help him make new friends and start a new life but he doesnt really seem to want to do it for himself.
Any advise on the otc drug abuse thing and any advise on how to balance when the to speak up and when to trust him.
Any advise at all would be greatly appreciated….Thanks!!

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Worried – Boyfriend – Heroin?

Saturday, August 28th, 2010

I have a wonderful sweet, sensitive, and emotionally damaged boyfriend. I love and respect him because we are so similar. I have accepted his love of marijuana, because I hardly consider it to be a hardcore drug, but lately he has been showing me more of a different side. He is the same person, essentially, but I didn’t know that part of his old drug life WASN’T behind him.

You see, now and then, socially usually, he’s been snorting crushed up oxy’s, which was odd, by i tried it once to see, those are what I would consider “drugs”, and since I’m not his mother, I do not forbid him, but I make sure he uses it casually, not daily. So twice or three times ever two weeks he takes a ton. It’s a little unsettling, but I’ve known many people using it, it does not justify the action, but i seemed to be a little less cool with him using.

Now he tells me that he hasn’t done heroin for three months, and then as we begin to open up, I find that though he tries to not upset me, he uses heroin every now and then, not too frequently, but still a bit. Now with heroin I immediately thought he was an addict and panicked. Apparently he is known as a chipper.

“Chipping – Someone who engages in the use of highly physically addictive drugs without becoming an addict. These people are very rare, and their ability to do so depends partially on personality and strength of will and also on physical makeup – some people simply form less of a craving, and some form none at all.”

The thing is, it is very rare to not eventually become addicted after your system’s threshold is depleted and the path of needing more and more hits to suffice a very minimal pain would be a daily thing.

I love him, he’s so fragile and hurt, I feel is pain and feel connected. He’s helped me get my life on the road, encouraged me to work and tells me that he would never allow me to ‘use’. Which is good of him. I know it’s impossible to change people, I don’t want to give him an ultimatum, and I don’t want to loose him unless there is no other option. I’m scared for him. What are my options?

Is minimal amount of heroin now and then really that horrible on a person?

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Heroin addict brother – memory loss right now, what should I do?

Friday, August 27th, 2010

My brother has talked to me about his addiction to heroin in the past 3 days. Before he told me it was crack, but then we talked more lately. Two days ago, he called some drug health help center who would’ve been able to address his problem in 10 days from then (so 8 days now I guess). When that time came, he would choose between in- or out-patient. I wouldve tried to convince him to do in-patient for a month. (they would give him methadone doses until his body was no longer addicted I guess?)

Last night I think he may have almost OD’ed, because when I woke him up (around 4:30pm) he doesn’t remember anything really that’s happened in the past 3 days. Doesnt remember calling that drug place- I had to show him the papers he got from them. Doesnt remember talking to me about the heroin- he thought I didnt know. He asked what time it was and where our mother was at (at work) about 5 times in 8 minutes, even though I answered every time.

Is the memory loss permanent?and what should I do?
also, he cant talk to my mother as well because she just gets upset. so he’s been talking to me about his problems all along and been very open with me. So, I dont know if I should tell everything to my mom. I’m considering calling 911 or that drug place, even though I dont think that drug place has an emergency service. Because my brother said when he called them, they booked him “as soon as they could (10 days from the call)”. But I’m not too sure about just getting him to the emergency room of a hospital, because I’m sure they’d just release him in like 3 days and nothing would be changed. I’m really worried about him now, a lot more than I was before…

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Does Heroin have amphetamines in it?

Thursday, August 26th, 2010

Does Heroin have amphetamines in it?

My sister has been doing Heroin for years. She’s been in & out of rehab several times. For the past 6 months she has been living with my Mother. The family thought she was finally clean, but she had us fooled. My mother drug tested her & the results came back positive for Amphetamines, but she also takes adderall. Today she came to me and said she has been using Heroin and now wants to go to detox. I’m taking her down to detox today, but for future references, does Heroin have amphetamines in it? So we know what to look for in case she was to relapse.

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Heroin Addict Brother?

Saturday, August 21st, 2010

Hi,

Need your views, took my heroin brother in my home as he was homeless and my mother recently died, he has been really abusive with me and threatened to kil me today and I had to call the police to have him removed, he has basically done nothing but abuse me in my own home and call me all the names under the sun his last words to me were f off you cxxxx. I feel really distraught about this whole situation and am wondering whether anyone else has experienced this and also whether you think I did th right thing to throw him out even though he is now on the street.

Not in the mood for stupid jokes, serious answers please

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heroin when can it be used.?

Friday, August 20th, 2010

some time back i was told that at times heroin was given out to people who where going to die and where in a lot of pain. what i want to know is can someone post me to a link of a place where this is done?

i know it is true and my friend does not trust me(or wiki when i showed him). his father and mother both are in the medical field but i know this to be true.

any help would be great on information. thanks

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If I call the cops on someone using heroin will they even care.?

Friday, August 13th, 2010

My mother & brother in law are both on heroin. I want to call the cops and have them busted, but i’m not sure they will respond to the call.
They have an 8 month old, and a 3 years old living in the house. They neglect both children, and abuse the 3 year old. I already called children’s services about the abuse, and all they got was probation.
Something really needs to happen here for the children’s sake. I could really care less if they both overdosed today, and died. But I will not just sit back and let these children suffer. Please give me any advise you may have.

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