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I’m fourteen and for the past few years I’ve been severely depressed.
My mom is a drug addicted prostitute that cares about he dog more than my brother and I. My father left when I was just a few years old because well as rumor has it he got a teenager pregnant and she threatened to call the police if he didn’t leave me, so he did.
I live with my aunt, grandma, brother and sister. My mother was with someone who I loved as a father figure when I was really little [I have a good memory]. He left the country when my mother accused him of cheating with another girl well he killed that girl and fled the country, that broke my heart. I lived with my aunt, her ex-husband and his son when I was maybe four or five. He cheated on her. She worked night shifts and his son would molest me and he would beat me with the belt. I started sleeping over at my grandma’s. My grandma, brother and I moved to a different town and my aunt followed with my uncle and his son. They lived in town and we didn’t. We lived in the country. Since the separation my grandma obviously favored my brother. My brother and I had a strong bond with all that we’ve been through. [I forgot to mention I lived with my grams when I was really really young though I don't remember she says when I moved with my aunt they sold my toys like everything and that I had a lot]. I wet the bed for a long time (by this time I’m like 6 when we moved) because of stress. She would yell at me and call me names like bed wetter, pissy body (?) ect. I took a knife into the bathroom and threatened to kill myself at 7. We moved back to my home town when I was 8 and have been here since. My aunt divorced my uncle and she lives across the street from us. I don’t have a good relationship with any of them. My brother, well he grew up and he is about to graduate. We’re four years apart. My cousin lived with us more here when we moved. (He was abused too and he has Bipolar.) We got really close, we’re 8 years apart. When he moved out that really effected me. My mom was never in the picture but she hangs around now and that stresses me.
She’s told me I am a whore ect and that I do drugs and she even told me to hang myself.
I was super popular and no one really knew or knows my life story. I used to get pure A’s and last year I messed up so bad. I never went to school and just didn’t care. I barely have friends now and I’m in homeschooling which was a terrible mistake. My grades are back up and I’m starting high school in August. About a year and a half ago I fell hard for someone I let break down my barriers and walls. He broke my heart after he got what he wanted. I still cry about him, I have no trouble being liked but I only take to certain people.
I have problems with abandonment, depression, anger problems, anxiety and separation anxiety.
In the beginning of summer two years ago I began cutting and it’s been my escape ever since. I write a lot too.
Now that you sort of know what’s happened to me. What kind of release things would be good for me? Therapy doesn’t help me at all it just makes me even more mad.
I also am willing to admit I am, very how should I say it, manipulative. I can show what people want to see.

I went for a psych evaluation and came out literally adored by everyone. I mean no offense but the people there were really ill in the head. [The staff loved me not the patients] If you saw me you couldn’t tell how hurt I am. No one knows and they add with every comment. It’s so bad that I cry every night in my room.

I’m just so tired of hurting and I want to start school a different person. I went from straight A’s, friends with everyone, Honor Roll, head cheerleader to someone without a GPA, getting strange looks, always in trouble and just a mess. I used to wear black so much and now I still do but not as much.

I want to just be happy.
I think maybe I know how it feels to be happy but that led to more pain, so I don’t know if I even know what it means to be happy.

I need help,

-Anastaisha
Isn’t Schizophrenia when you have multiple personalities or something? Or here or see people that aren’t there?
It’s hard enough for me to write this. I know you can’t verify but I am telling the truth. Sometimes people just have those kind of lives. It’s not all fairy tale childhoods for everyone.
About the other questions, no I don’t have a strong imagination.
The things about like Pyrokinesis ect well my mind travels.
I’m a G.A.T.E student. My mind doesn’t work like other kids. Look it up since you obviously like doing that.

My brother is 25 years old and he drinks everyday beer, when he gets drunk he becomes verbally abusive, he has got into violent arguments with me, he also tells my little brothers bad things, he also plays his music very loud and smokes pot, my mom won’t kick him out of the house,me and my mom and my little brothers are scared of him, we cannot help him with his alcoholism only he can, I’m living at my mom and step dad’s house I’m a single mother of a 2 year old and pregnant, that is why I cannot get my own place, I won’t get hired nowhere at this period of time, how can we deal with this family member?

My Dad is making me lose my mind.

I’m 19, go to a community college (am in my second semester), get mostly As and some Bs… my parents pay for my schooling. I appreciate it everyday!
I’m an aspiring audio engineer… i study every aspect of the profession on a daily basis. I have a 100 average in all my Music classes thus far and have been told by my engineering teachers that THIS IS the path for me.
-I work 25+ hours a week at a grocery store but am starting to actively look for internships.
-I’m in a jam band with 9 other friends (on drums). We chill nearly daily, play disc golf, motivate each other to achieve our dreams, and go out drinking and partying on weekends. None of us are reckless… none of us do “hard drugs”… Most of my friends smoke weed, but I haven’t in months because it makes me too lazy. I just stick to the weekend brews, by personal decision.
-I paid for my car with my own cash.

My Dad is the only gloom on these great college years. He drinks a 30 pack of Keystone every night and smokes a pack of cigarettes a day… You can see his lifestyle all over his face…
He has extremely high blood pressure and is very high strung in general. We can be having a conversation and all of a sudden he will start yelling.
He has OCD… which is frustrating for me because i’m incredibly chilled out. I’ve got long dreadlocks… (i’m a little part black so i can pull them off extremely well, but my dad HATES it)
he is constantly closing doors, yelling at me for leaving my bedroom light on for just 3 or 4 minutes while i am downstairs, and yelling at my mother for every ridiculous reason imaginable.

I believe it is a defense mechanism. He tries to nitpick every small fault of others around him to justify his alcoholism and life threatening ways.

Not only that, but he uses the fact that i live at home against me. I constantly hear “You live in this house! My rules!”, even telling them i’m going to sleep over at a friends house on a weekend night.

I feel like i can’t mature in this environment. I know this has turned into a ramble… but how do you young adults deal with an irresponsible parent that can’t help but treat you like a little boy?!
Thanks for the advice everybody. I really don’t fear for my own safety around my father… I just have trouble standing by when there is such a negative energy in the house. I care about my parents and have always respected their rules (never broke curfew in my life…).

Again, thanks for all your answers.
They are all taken to heart!

My parents and I don’t have a good relationship. Let me give you some background. My mother is a recovering alcoholic. While she used to binge drink and pass out, she would was always there for me and my siblings and would actually make up for her drinking by being attentive. Now, she spends all her time at Alcoholics Anonymous meetings, and no longer cooks dinner, does laundry, or shows much of an interest in our lives other than to simply “nag” us. She does cook dinner and take great care of my father, though, who, while supporting us with an excellent job is also an alcoholic, binge drinking every Sunday and on “special occasions” like his 50th birthday party.

Anyway, my mother went to my back to school night yesterday (I am in high school) and told all my teachers (and one of my past teachers) how I am a disrespectful daughter (and I will admit, I am very sarcastic, but that is how I treat everyone, not just my mom). I have also told her that I don’t respect her, because she doesn’t follow through with anything (a behavior I see mirrored in myself, though I try to stop it), she won’t continue her education, she doesn’t have a job, and constantly criticizes me, my sister, and my brother. I told my mom that it made her sound ignorant and unprofessional that she whined about our personal life to my teachers, and I reiterated that I could not respect that or her. My father came running into the room, yelled at me, “WHY don’t you respect her,” and kept yelling and repeating the question, getting up into my face in a rage. He finally threw a folded towel at me and told me that he; didn’t respect me,that I was a bad daughter, and that he didn’t like me. Both of my parents often explode at me like that, but this is the worst it has ever been.

Please tell me how I should deal with this. Should I pretend that I respect my mother? Or should I just keep my distance? Please, please, give me your honest opinions. I need help.
I should also add that they do not treat my older brother or younger sister in this manner. They never have.

My sister is an alcoholic. Her alcoholism has cost her her marriage her job and the custody of her children. I get along great with her kids step mother and I actually prefer the step mother company than my sister’s. The problem is that she comes to the family functions and always feels the need to bring up past issues up in front of my other sisters and brothers signifacte others that will embrass us. When we watch movies she cant seem to shut up and when you do call her on her lies she plays the victim. Her children want nothing to do with her. She lies to my parent and takes advantage of their generosity. Fails to pay her bills on time and lets my parents pick up the tab. She is 34 years old. It wasnt until her husband left her in 2006 that we even knew she had a problem with alcohol. We all have gone out of way to help her stay sober but she continues to drink and bring drama to our family. I’m at the point where I have anxiety when I know she is going 2 b around.
Here is the situation. She goes to AA she is going to church people pray for her but she LIES to everybody. My parents believe everything she says. I have told them many times to let her fall on her face. They say they will but don’t. My thing is how do I deal with her so I dont beat her up when she makes a stupid comment and end up making myself look like the bad guy. I am tried of her. I am nice to her because I have to be and out of respect to my parents but my God yesterday it took all my might not to punch her in her face. I’m the quitest one in the family. I am nice to everyone but I cant seem to let go and get over the crap she has pulled at the family functions. Everyone else just ignores it I can’t anymore. Any suggestions?
I do avoid her and I don’t even talk to her. She feels the need to always bring up my name followed by a lie as if she is intentionaly looking to make me look bad in front of my family. After she leaves everyone is talking about can you beleive she said this and can you believe she said that yet they do not say anything to her face. I would stay away from my family functions but then I would be missing out on my neices and nephews lives. I just want to get over the anger and resent I have toward her. Oh most of which stems from the various drunk vm she left on my cell when she was angery for not seeing her kids. My other sister insists on intviting her to all the functions and so do my parents because they feel sorry that her kids do not want to have anything to do with her.
I do have visitation with my alcoholic sister’s children. I would be missing out on the fun with my other sisters and brothers the ones I actually get along with and their kids.

I’m really stressed and have considered suicide more than once, I literally had the gun in my hand ready to end my life. I know you guys probably think I just want attention and all that, but I really don’t. I just need a way to deal with stress because my life is full of stress.

My mom has a heart problem and she smokes
My dad is a drug addict addicted to alcohol (Seriously he gets drunk every day and goes through pills like they’re candy.)
My mom and I have been wanting to leave but we don’t have a lot of money so we can’t leave on our own.
The reason my mom smokes is because of the stress of my dad.
When my dad is drunk he’s pretty mean and he’s constantly fumbling around falling and breaking my stuff, and then whenever he runs out of medicine(After he takes it all in less than 3 days after he gets it) he blames it on me. Apparently I’m a drugaddict in his eyes. (He’s stupid. I don’t do drugs, I don’t smoke and I don’t drink.)

I’ve considered smoking, I’ve heard it helps a lot.
Also, something I don’t have to pay for* we don’t have a lot of money. Also, I’ve tried meditation but it only helps for the short period of time in which I’m meditating. I need a longterm fix for this stress or else I’m probably going to kill my dad or kill myself.
And I don’t have any relatives nearby that I can go to, and a shelter is out of the question.
I’m 17, and yes I do have a job. It’s not enough to support my mother though and she’s the only reason I haven’t killed myself yet because I love her more than anything and anyone.

This is a pretty long story but I will try to keep it as short as possible.
I have been estranged from my brother since we were teenagers because we were never close due to his molesting me when I was young. Last March we came into contact at our mother’s house and I learned that he had a four month old baby girl. Our mother insisted that he had changed and that I should give him a chance, so I did.
Fast forward to June 27, 2010: I found myself bringing the baby girl home with me to another state because my brother had a major drug overdose and the baby’s mother admitted to smoking meth and breastfeeding.
I have had the baby since that time although my brother and mother moved to the state I live in the second week of July. Neither of them held a job and I payed most of their expenses. I also kept receipts for every expense I had for the baby to be able to prove where she lived if needed.
Fast forward to January 5, 2011: My sixty-one year old mother called me late in the evening to tell me that my brother was high and he had assaulted her. I went to pick her up and she lived in my home for two months before moving back to the state she had moved from. She refused to file charges. The entire two months that she lived in my home she said nearly every day that my brother is on drugs and has no business being around the baby. She encouraged me to file for legal custody nearly every day, but I didn’t…until…
On January 31, 2011 I received a call from the local hospital. I was told that my brother had just had emergency surgery. When I got to the hospital I learned that he had been shooting up again and had inserted a tomato juice can into his rectum, requiring emergency surgery to remove it. I also learned that he admitted to shooting up for several days before this happened. He tested positive for nine dangerous drugs in his system. He told the medical staff that he shoots up frequently and that this wasn’t the first time he had to have emergency surgery to remove something from his rectum. Thankfully the hospital staff put these statements in his medical record and my attorney was able to subpoena them. Also he doesn’t smoke his drugs, he is an I.V. drug addict. It was at that point that I decided that I did need to file for custody of the baby. I shopped around for an attorney and filed a few weeks later.
My mother had moved back to her home state before I filed. She swears that she never told me to file for custody and she has reported me to child welfare services several times since I filed in an attempt to have my own seventeen year old daughter as well as the baby removed from my home. Child welfare workers have gotten so tired of her lies that they don’t even bother coming to my home or calling any more.
My problem is that I don’t know how to deal with my brother. He refuses to accept that I am trying to keep the baby safe and forcing him to get help if he wants to be in her life. I have never denied him visitation or phone calls, I have tried to help him as well as the baby’s mother since this started but they just refuse to act like adults. Worse, he has refused to take court-ordered drug tests so now his visitation has to be supervised in my home.
How do I deal with him? How do I get him to see that I am trying to keep the baby from being around dangerous drug addicts? And why is he suddenly so angry about this when I have had her for nearly a year and he can’t even say that he has even tried to support her? I do not understand his reasoning. Any ideas?

I’m 20 my boyfriends 21. We have been together off and on since I have been 15. We have found out I’m 5 weeks pregnant. My boyfriend struggles with indulging in alcohol and when he’s drunk it leads him to drugs. he got in a car reck and had to go to icu where he couldn’t even get out of his bed. He received a dui and already had warrents at the time. After that he changed and wanted to be clean so we got an apt together and have been there for 4 mnths. He has never acted bad except foer last nite. He spent his entire check 400.00 dollars on alcohol and drugs in ONE night. I didn’t even see him and he blaming me and my dad that we stole 200 frm him. The day b4 he was drinking as well and told me he didn’t want a bigger woman as his babys mom. I jus got my hair cutt and he said maybe he would be nicer if I didn’t look like a dike. He also too my bag of baby stuff frm rachels house who confirmed I was prgnant and riped the papers up as well as the diaper and threw the toy monkey and baby cup on the floor when the cup cracked. I don’t know if he’s scred about the baby and lashing out or what’s going on??? I went to my moms last night. I’m thinking abiut going back even though there is no room for me and this baby when it comes. I’m so confused. I don’t know what to do? What would you do?

We met in Jan 08 got serious in Mar 08. He seemed so composed until out of nowhere he fell off the wagon. That weekend he broke up with me for a stupid reason, his mom got sick(cancer), and he went on an alcohol and cocaine binge. I am so scared- I never expected him to relapse just like that.He said he went to a hotel, and in 24hrs had 2 bottles of vodka, 18 beers, $300 worth of cocaine, $300 worth of crack. He’s acting so strange since then I am almost scared to be around him. Please help. I dont what to do. I am respecting his wishes of not discussing this with my friends. I’m lost. I am not in AA by the way, and dont know what hes going through. Im scared he will do this next time we argue. In fact, I dont even want to have aboyfriend like that anymore. How do I break up with this person?
Hels also possesive, gets mad if I dont answer his calls, or dont want to stay at his house all night.
I live by myself.

We met in Jan 08 got serious in Mar 08. He seemed so composed until out of nowhere he fell off the wagon. That weekend he broke up with me for a stupid reason, his mom got sick(cancer), and he went on an alcohol and cocaine binge. I am so scared- I never expected him to relapse just like that.He said he went to a hotel, and in 24hrs had 2 bottles of vodka, 18 beers, $300 worth of cocaine, $300 worth of crack. He’s acting so strange since then I am almost scared to be around him. Please help. I dont what to do. I am respecting his wishes of not discussing this with my friends. I’m lost. I am not in AA by the way, and dont know what hes going through. Im scared he will do this next time we argue. In fact, I dont even want to have aboyfriend like that anymore. How do I break up with this person?
Hels also possesive, gets mad if I dont answer his calls, or dont want to stay at his house all night.
I live by myself.

I recently was pregnant and I didnt know it until the day after valentines day and i was almost 7 weeks pregnant, I was under all kinds of stress the whole time and I never smoked or drank. Me & the dad were so excited because he thought that he was sterile and then we find out I’m pregnant. He had already told like everyone he ever knew we were having a baby. We picked out names for the baby and I was so happy to be having a little baby. I ate everything right nothing I did was what I shouldnt of done. I just cant help but miss my little angel every morning when I wake up but the dad doesnt want to talk about the baby because it hurts him so much and hes not good with expressing his emotions. I cried all day on mothers day because I saw all these lucky women walking around with their kids or baby bellys, & I didnt have one anymore. I dont know what to do everyone tells me it takes time to let these kinds of things go, but I dont want to let go of that time. I want to be able to have it in my thoughts all the time but its tears me apart from the inside and I feel like my heart cracks off another piece every time I think about my child. Then I see all these people, smoking, drinking, & doing drugs while their pregnant and it makes me think why do they get to keep their kid and I have to lose mine?? When I went to the doctors I found out that Im rh-, and I just need some advice because I dont want to try again so soon for fear of the same thing happening again and what in the world would I do then I would just die of a broken heart. It the worst feeling in the world knowing that you cant even be a mother without your own child passing away inside of you :’(… Does anyone have any similar experenances or any form of advice for me..?

When I was younger, my dad used to get drunk. Him and my mom would yell at each other practically every night, but it never got to physical abuse. I don’t think his alcoholism ever progressed to a state where it seriously affected me, but I could be misjudging things. When I was about ten years old, they separated, had an ugly separation and divorce filled with harassment (through me at times) and other problems. Now I live with my mom, who never drinks. She’s had a bad childhood with an adopted unmedicated bipolar mother, so she has her share of scars too. I have found out that my mother must be a co-alcoholic, she has the extreme mood swings, outbursts about tiny things when you least expect it, etc. Then after these outbursts it is like everything is fine, and most times I receive a serious apology, which doesn’t stop the cycle from repeating again. Now that you all have the story, here are my questions: How badly was I really affected by my dad’s drinking, what is going on with my mom and how badly is her behavior affecting me, and what would happen if my mom started drinking a little bit?

I have tried for 3 years to get into an extremely prestigious school. I finally got accepted, and I’m so excited and proud of myself. My grandmother has always been a huge supporter in my education and agreed to pay half of my $23,000 tuition as long as I keep my grades up (please don’t comment on the cost of this, I will be getting financial aide for school also). My grandmother has custody of me, although I live outside the house, in my own apartment that my grandmother signed for.

My mother is upset about something. Nobody knows what, but she’s been having an episode. She’s been threatening to call CPS on my grandmother (my grandmother is taking care of 3 of her children, because my mother is a severe drug addict), and she said she was psychotic, and that she was going to take her to court and tell the judge horrible things, and she assured her that I will not be going to the school I want. My mother called my work today, while I was in a meeting, and started screaming. I hung up, she called back again. She did this 12 times, YES, 12 times and she is on the verge of getting me fired. She did the same thing to my grandmother, whos a nurse in a jail, and the Sargent said that if her family doesn’t have enough respect not to call her with drama at work, that she needs to find a new job, which is impossible for a 65 year old taking care of a 14 & 9 year old.

I’m scared my mother is going to call the school and tell them I don’t want to attend, or call the courts and start a ton of drama there. I have a ton of stress right now, as I just found out my son has a rare form of epilepsy, I’m trying to balance that, two jobs, and school.

How do I deal with my mother? My poor grandmother is going insane with this, and im at the end of my rope.
I don’t know how to handle the school situation, I’ll be furious if she messes this up for me. I don’t answer her calls to my cell phone or house, but I have to answer my work phone, so theres no way to avoid her completely. I’m so stuck.

i’m 18 years old, male, and i just get really depressed about stuff alot, and sometime just find myself crying at night, or getting unnecessarily drunk to help me deal with the pain, whenever i think about my mom bailing on me, or even when she was around, just a bad environment, with her screaming at me and my little sister back in the day, and when i was a really little kid i was really scared of my dad, he used to beat me on a whim, i would have nightmares about him (had to go through 2 pretty bad divorces once as a lil kid, and once when i was like 12) , or cant find a girl who’s right for me(i think some of my girl troubles have alot to do with the relationship with my mom, but i dont know), and me and my dad ain’t that close, i mean we are cool, but i can’t really talk to him about this sh1t, and now my mom is addicted to drugs somewhere, i keep to myself about my problems for the most part, sorry if this is unorganized, i have a hard time putting it down
..and believe me i’m not someone who just wallows around in self pity, and looking for sympathy from everyone… in fact i have pretty much no one that i can really open up to..so i guess ill try it here. i honestly feel like a btch for feeling the way i do

We moved here from Russia and for some reason my parents think that Russia is a thousand times safer than the United States. My parents do let me go to sleepovers, go shopping, go to the beach.. But only when the location is local. They don’t let me stay out at night and insist that I come home by 6 on most nights… IF im even allowed to go out. (they punish me for not studying enough even though i have an A- average)

I’m doing running start at a community college and they don’t want me hanging out with friends that are 1 or 2 years older then me. They just say “find kids your own age”. But I’m very mature and most of my friends are a lot older and the only time I can hang out with them is at school. It’s like they want me to talk to my friends that I’ve met when I was younger but don’t want me meeting new people because they are “questionable”.

Boys are completely out of the question, and most guys don’t want to deal with me long term because my prison lifestyle puts a strain on the relationship. They only want me to hang out in a 10 mile radius outside my house (in safe places only). I mentioned moving out when I’m 18 and joining a sorority, my mom seems cool because she obviously hasn’t heard of binge drinking but my dad is freaking out and against it.

I’m a very patient and non-rebellious child, I’ve never said “I hate you” or “F**k you” to my parents cuz i’d be shot if i did. I’m okay with living like this as long as I get to move out and live on campus once I go to college and not have to come home every weekend to “keep me safe from the parties”.

I’m 17 right now and I’m always telling them that I’m going to be a legal adult when im 18 and I’m going to make my own choices, you know to prepare them. If they are against me moving out later on, how do I still do it without ruining our relationship??
Btw, I’m a girl.

What do you find absolutely mandatory in a partner, I mean very little room for compromise when it comes to that one or two things. Rather it’s physical, emotional, spiritual, whatever. Why do you find it unbearable to deal without?

What do you find it unbearable to deal with?

What are the top three things you have to offer in a relationship? Leave the modesty for another question lol.

I’m really into fitness and MMA, and I spend at LEAST 2 hours exercising or doing kickboxing and BJJ drills. I would have to have an active person, doesn’t have to be into fighting too *though that would be preferred*. They have to be at least mildly in to fitness. Another question does anybody else who kind of a “health nut” feel that way? Also they have to have thick skin cause I’m terribly blunt.

I can’t stand spoil brats. If you have a good upbringing I’m not hating, but if your oblivious to the fact that you got a great family, great parents, and a great life…. I can’t even talk to you. I had to work for everything I had since I was 15, live by myself since 18, dad was a drug addicted, mom was a religious nut who kicked me out, got shot at, attacked, name it I been through it. I still find numerous things to be thankful for. I just can’t stand ungratefulness, especially when your privileged.

First thing I bring into a relationship is raw honesty rather that’s good or not. Secondly, I’m protective especially over females, guys too, but more so females. Thirdly, I’m very cultured been a lot of places, *military brat* which resulted in me requiring the taste of a wide array of cuisines. I’m a great chef, like above average. I love Rachel Ray, but I could cook circles around her. Not that she ever claimed to be a gourmet chef.

So what about you…..

my mom is alcoholic, sort of, ever science kemo therapy a half glass of wine has the same effect that a bottle has on a normal person. she went out for a “walk” with my step dad (who usually drinks about a bottle and a half a night and the passes out) she said she would be back in a half hour, she and my step dad came back three hours later and my step dad is now watching tv and calling me a “mother f$%*#er” my mom is now shouting “just go live with your father!” she made me go with my dad in michigan last summer, im visiting her in vail for thanks giving. what should i do to get her to stop yelling at me? in the long term how can i convince her to go to AA or quit drinking by some other means?

i’ve had to deal with him for almost 18 years now.
now im in college and im still living at home with him and my mom and brother and he’s only gotten worse.
first it was just booze, now he’s on meth.
he’s freaking insane!!
i hope to move out soon or something but in the meantime what can i do to deal with this?

i have known i was gay ever since i can remember i never accepted it and still wish it werent true but know i can not change it. i realized that after praying and crying everynight to this god everyone seems to believe exists ….not saying gods not real just not the one most people seem to worship for hating everything thats not compatible with society…anyway this all happened for about 3 months about a year and a half ago until i tried to kill myself….my main problem now is just dealing with it and its hard being in a CATHOLIC school where the word gay and homosexual is banned from the vocabulary in ALL WAYS accept how to bash it ….anyway i have always put up a good shield to not let anyone figure me out i have come out to a couple of close friends who were completely surprised and didnt believe me for a while ….the thing is i have a deep crush on a boy couple boys at school and after accepting the fact that they are both straight i cant talk to them like i used to be able to and i have been friends with them since 3rd grade …im a junior in high school now…when they talk to me i start feeling angry sad and depressed along with completely in love with the voice im hearing ….i cant concentrate on what they are saying and i cant say anything after i did here it….i wish i could come out and i dont think it would be that big of a deal with my friends but if thier parents ever found out they would prolly get me kicked out of the school and make damn sure thier sons didnt hang around me ….they are mostly rich political and doctor kids whith parents that have a lot of power in this small town and if my parents found out i would definately be in hell …my mom is a drug addicted bar tender and my dad is a ”devout catholic” accept when hes beeing a hardcore alcoholic and my step mom wont talk to her brother at all because hes gay and she told her brother ”get the fuck out of my house you fucking faget” a week after he came out of the closet…after that i went into deep depression and tried to kilmyself because if a brother and sister could be like that then what is everyone else like….anyway my dad would prolly end up accepting it but hating me at the same time my step mom would get a divorce and my dad would drink more ALL THE TIME …i cant focus on school at all because of all the bullshit goin on between my mom myself and my dad being a different person every night….i dont know how to deal with my life right now and if i dont figure something out ill fale school and maybe try suicide again which is something i never want to do again….ill tell you some about me so you can better help….my stepdad (before my moms drug problems) was a very good mechanic he taught me everything he knows and we are still father and son even tho i can hardly get ahold of him maybe once or twice a year….i accel in trade school i have won many contests and have had a couple of jobs most grown men would kill for of course only during the summer…i was on the wieght team in 9th grade i was repping 250 and have been strongest viking at my school since i was a freshman…i have never had a girlfriend and just act not interested in havin a relationship around my friends and they accept that…i have done good for myself i have had a lot of achievements and completed a lot of goals not to mention i have built a 91 chevy c1500 that will run 7:53 on the quarter mile something i am most proud of and i currently during school work on cars in my dads garage for cash…also i get depressed when my family puts me down for wanting to be a grease monkey since they are paying for me to get a good education so i can be a doctor or lawyer ….they tell me stuff like ill never be able to make it and its hard and doesnt make a lot of money but i know better and get over that quickly and one last thing about me …..i dont want to see any kind of bullshit with you fucking flammers out there …but really why would anyone fuck with someone who barely gives a shit about his own life cus ”god” know i dont give a shit about yours, flammers
the fact is im gonna fail high school i almost failed all my classes last year the teacher passed me with a 70.1 just because they knew i was having family problems im worried about this because i can see that if i do good i could have a good future

My mom was an alcoholic for many years. As a result, we live far from each other, but we now have a relationship “over the phone. ” Can anyone recommend some coping mechanisms so that I can continue to be patient with her when she has her emotional break downs?