We will help you get your mom off drugs!

My man’s mother started chemotherapy today. I have known for months that it is time for me to man up and be there for him emotionally. However, I struggle to be open with him…to be supportive. For some reason, I continue my old patterns of clamming up and bottling up my emotions. I am so worried about saying the right thing, that I say nothing at all, and it has created a huge divide between us.
When we first met, I was a very self-destructive person…hurting myself, doing things I knew were bad for me…perpetually creating disaster…I am addicted to pain. I have come a long way since then, but my patterns are so ingrained, that I do not know how to break them. I have thought and meditated and wrote for countless hours to no avail. I have to break these patterns, otherwise my life and everyone’s who is close to me will be disaster.
Has anyone ever conquered self-destructive/emotionally closed off behaviors? Can anyone give me any kind of advice? This is very serious… please don’t respond unless you understand the gravity of this situation.

can this be considered as a proof that it knows the basic way of living before or is it a proof of rebirth ?

sorry if my english is poor

Can CPS workers come to the home after a case is completely closed, and can a parent possibly have their case re-opened if there is alcohol in the home or if they have been drinking.? Not getting drunk, but minimal legal age drinking inside the home?

anything. Every since my mom died something has been missing in me. Its been a month and still no one knows what it is. Most days I would just leave in the middle of school and go to the rehab center and lay there on her bed and cry some more. I had no one now besides my aunt, but what could she do? Without my mother, I became more scared. Even though when I was beaten by my father she never helped, but when he was put in jail I felt safe with her and now shes gone. The next week I herd …