Alcoholic Mother and Abuse!?! HELP!! ?
Thursday, December 16th, 2010Ok, my mom has been to rehab, therapy, meetings, and the whole shabam for alcohol addiction. Nothing is working and today she was not ok. She started flipping out over nothing and throwing things (such as my cell phone at a glass table mad at my dad and anything!) and it was so bad. She was fighting with my dad and it was so horrible. Not the worse, but I’m sooo shaken up from it. I was so scared and she was going to run away, but she was in rage and drunk and I stole the car keys from her and I had a melt down crying trying so hard to contain myself. I finally got her to go inside and she started screaming like an INSANE person. She was screaming and whaling at the top of her lungs and started throwing up she was so mad bent over. And than she peed herself and I got her to calm down and she went to her room and slammed the door. I was home alone with her by the way I’m 12. After my dad got home finally they fought and after her sobering up they just acted like NOTHING HAPPENED!?! Made up TA-DA after I’m still shaking. I thought she was suicidal and they do NOTHING! And they just hugged and now everything is “ok.” And now she is back to somewhat normal, but how can i erase this from my head! Much bigger fights happened from when I was even younger. This def isn’t the worst at all that’s happened, but now that I’m older I’m fed up. I’m becoming traumatized from it. I went to therapy once, but I can’t go now or meetings nothing. How do I handle this? I want to act my age and I’m not that brave. I grew up with this and the scary thing this isn’t even out of the ordinary for me at all. It’s affecting my relationships with everyone. My friends are mad at me now to for ditching them because I had to help my mom. :[ I can’t tell them either. Help? :\