
I’ve been friends with a girl I’ve known since 6th grade. Up until about 4 years ago. I could only have ranted and raved about her. She fed me lunches when my mom was abusive and starving me as a child. She listened to years of my bs and was always there, always kind and always sharing. And I reciprocated the same to her. We were truly equal and good friends and it was a healthy relationship, but we were kids.
Once out of high school, she went to college 4 hours away and I had a baby. So our lives went in different paths but we talked on the phone every week at least, im’ed all the time on the computer and I went to visit her and she always made time for me when she came back home.
After her 4 years of college she moved back to our hometown and she was ready for other things in her life and me too…like dating and getting married. We were both single and ready to mingle. Well I found someone though other friends and we got very serious to the point of being engaged for a while. That is when the trouble started. She was still hitting the bars all weekend long and trying to find the love of her life and I’d found mine at the time. And I couldn’t hit the bars with her and she didn’t seem to want to do other things. It was a priority she had and I was being left out and I got mad with her and quit talking to her for a year. She wanted nothing to do with my new life b/c it was boring to her. And she wanted her bar friend back for the weekends.
So she found new bar friends that led her to other things like pot and eventually a bad boyfriend that was a meth lab cooker at 15, used herion, coke, etc.
He got her into pot and coke. She does only pot now but she drinks very heavily and they live in crack alley. (we obviously started talking again because I missed her and our friendship and my engagment ended) So I would still even try to go to her home and spend time with her hoping I could help or just to check and see how she was doing and she almost dragged me down to their level. I finally just told her that I wasn’t comfortable at her new house and that I’d still love to be her friend but we’ll have to meet up somewhere else other than there and I’d like it to be just us two and not her cracked out boyfriend. Who we all still suspect is using coke. She is blind to him and his faults and her life has become a s*it hole due to her own bad choices and being with him.
She has since only talked to me though myspace comments once a month. I’m now married of 2 months. I have a 6 year old child and I can’t figure out if the friend I once loved and couldn’t imagine not having is gone forever and if I should say see you later one last time. Or is it worth staying in the background in case she needs me and accept the fact she is never there for me, never sees me anymore and is only out for her and her boyfriends gain?
Any thoughts guys? I could really use this. We’re 26 years old now.
And if your opinion is that I should end this and say adios…what are your suggestions on how to do it other than saying you’re a drug addict, etc. and I’ve got to go? Thanks to who reads this.