
So okay, I know that i’m only almost 18 (tomorrow november 20th) and i’m not out to find my soul mate anytime soon, but i’d still like to have worthwhile relationships, you know? So over the summer I became friends with a whole new group of people, amazing people, hippies haha. I have since done acid and shroom and loved it.. that’s really not the point. So I started dating this one guy but had a crush on another who is only 15! Well me and this 15 year old started dating and he’s a pretty hardcore hippie, dreads and all, and he’s also a ‘dead head’ like most of his friends and family. I see drugs all the time and it doesn’t bother me it’s just that he’s so young I feel like it’s not cool that he smokes weed all day everday, although that doesn’t really bother me either I just know it’s not healthy you know? We’re not in love but we obviously love eachother platonically. I just don’t do all the things he and the rest of his family and friends do. His mother is in prison and has been raised by his 19 year old sister with a 4 year old daughter, he also has another little sister. They all live in a double in the not so good part of town. I absoltually LOVE all these people, but the thing is how do you love this boy and these people without slowly unknowingly becoming like them. I mean I hadn’t done anything besides smoke weed on occasion, i mean i’ve always been a drinker so we have that in common, but acid and shroom are things i kind of wanted to try but never would have probably not done yet if it weren’t for them. I’ve already been to almost two festivles already to and am debating if i want to commit and go out of state ones this summer. I DON’T KNOW! I don’t even know what my point is exactly I just love them but i’d really rather not end up like them. Like smoking crack and doing coke. I let it known that I don’t want these things they offer me. Now that i’ve met them people that I have become friends with are in and out of jail as well. I’m just nothing like them but I love them and it makes it hard because now this 15 year old and I broke up and i’m talking to a kind of ‘Christiany’ boy.. total opisite! It’ll be hard to date him and not feel comfertable about bringing him around people I hang out with everyday. Oh well.. if you understand in any way HELP ME, love you.