My mother doesn’t act like a mother! Help, I’m so frustrated! (Please have patience, this is a LONG one)?
Wednesday, May 26th, 2010Trying to be as detailed as possible but not more than necessary: my mother is self absorbed. (I guess not really, this thing is long)
I am a young 20 something who’s just moved back in with my mother to regroup. But now that I’m back I remember what drove me out in the first place. In my absence, my teenage sister has started smoking weed. My mother had a bf living w her who she claimed she was gnna marry, even though she knew (everyone knew) he was wrong for her.
One day [if I was here at the time, this would not have happened, and I found out two weeks after the incident occurred] he slaps my sister across the face, right in front of my mom, bc of an argument he and my sis were having abt him mooching off my mom on a cruise she was paying to take him on. No one called the police, my mom did nothing, just told him he had to leave. Yet he comes the very night knocking on the door saying he has nowhere to stay. She lets him. This was Nov, she gave him till the “end of the month”, which i came to find out she meant Jan 31st?
Nooowww, Feb comes, the guy’s finally gone (bc after talking to me, he finally gets the pic that he needs to leave); two weeks later, a guy comes along at her work, in whom she has no attraction nor interest. Till she finds out from her coworker that he’s loaded, retired, and looking for someone to spoil. Then all of a sudden “God told him she’s suppose to be his wife.” Now, look, I believe God does these things, but I believe its suppose to go both ways.
If I have a booger in my nose, I want to be told. I always have been like that, and so are the close ppl I’m close with. But my own warnings and concerns that it may be too soon to be dating someone so seriously (he proposed to her after they’d been dating 3 weeks w an obnoxious ring he’d been working on 8 years, now theyre engaged, but she didn’t tell other fam members), she thinks i’m trying to criticize and attack her.
I want my mother to be happy. Of COURSE I want her to be happy! After seeing her go through so much in my life, I don’t want her putting herself through anything more. She’s been w a man16 yrs [my father] who’s cheated, mooched, destroyed her credit, and moved on for another woman.
Additionally, I’ve noticed some other things that has brought rage, resentment, and restirred some old memories and accompanying feelings. My mother is not the ‘huggy’ type. She’s never been the type to encourage us or tell us we’re good at whatever. She’s never nurtured our interests, just took care of our needs once she and my dad split, for which I am deeply and eternally and exponentially grateful. And yes she’s very regretful & apologetic for her severe verbal abuse in the past, which dates back to as far back as my memories can extend. She’s always been wrathful, sarcastic, and heavily insulting to both my sister, and, esp., me, whom she’s always resented for being like my father.
Seems like she’s dropped old habits for new ones. My sister’s addicted (idc wtf everyone has to say abt it, she feels she cant stop, she told me so) to marijuana…….. My parents are west indian, so we NEVER grew up this way bc it’s considered disrespectful and distant, but my sister spends all her time in her room w the door closed. She sleeps all the time, she eats in there w the door closed, watches tv w the door closed– and my mom never even noticed!
When we have random pleasant conversations, my mother somehow shifts the focus of the conversation to something she went through, and then the conversation’s about her life again. Idk if she even notices she does that. If we’re having a conversation abt something, she’ll just talk over me about something totally different and irrelevant. If I’m trying to share something w her, like how I got the croissants to be so flaky, she’ll walk away– RIGHT while I’m talking! If she doesn’t like what you’re saying to her, she’ll either raise up the music if we’re in the car, or if it’s over the phone, she’ll hang up in my face. It’s like only she needs to be heard, and what you say, if it’s not 1. positive, and 2. about/ relating to/ directed to/ pertaining to her, it’s not important, and thus not worthy of being heard.
Now that she’s dating this guy, when we try to talk/ spend time w her, she always acts like we’re bothering her. If i call while she’s w him, she answers, not ‘hello?’ but “WHAT?” Idk what she’s told this guy, but several incidents have led me to believe that she’s told him we don’t like him. Everytime me & my sis try to talk to her abt her distance and her perceived self-absorption, she only gets overly defensive. She blames our unwillingness to accept the guy (which is bs), telling us in not so many words on frequent and unwarranted occasions to fuck